Martincho

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Read the post that I have there. I wrote it today and I want your opinion ><
Sadly I write my feelings.

RAWR Hope you get this message soon fool, I had to go out to the mall with my family D8 I hope I can come home by the time for your wedding, its in 4hrs D< .. rawr.. -steps on the gas pedal-

Merry chirstmas Martin hope u got everything u wanted have a nice day^_^

D=; 39 here but I fail xD

Actually.. I don't think it's going to be okay.. I want to be optimistic but I don't think he wants what we've built, and if he does, it's just not showing because we rushed too fast. But the thing is, I want to keep everything we've built, but I want to slow it down a ton so that he's comfortable. I know if we slowed it down a lot and everything he'd be more comfortable. Especially now that I'm gone. I'm really confused on what he wants, and he's scared of the relationship we had, and I don't feel like I can talk about all of this with him because I'm already so hurt that I don't know what to do but cry. Seems like all my body wants is to just collapse and wilt away. >< The last night I was there was perfect.. and right before I left.. I saw the look on his face and it reminded me of everything I loved about him.. it was a look I didn't see much while I was there.. he wanted me gone.. but I don't know if he's going to miss me, if he even cares that I'm gone.. ><

I'm far from okay.. I really just feel like curling up and crying until I die of sadness ><

Actually.. he told me to go home..

Hey Martin =( I'm heading back home from Canada..

hehehe ok =) i miss ya too..and have fun with frolly =D
later =D

I'm going to try to get some sleep before I leave for the airport. I'll talk to you later, when I'm in Canada :3 Have a good night and a nice day, miss ya in the guild! I'll try to get on more when I can =) Cya later Martin